lowkey never thought i would post something here but i think i am actually losing myself now everyone around me thinks i am doing fine because i post stories laugh in college reply with dry jokes and act chill all the time but bro truth is i cry almost every night after putting my phone on dnd i moved away from home thinking life would finally get better new city new people new beginning type shit but instead i have never felt this lonely before surrounded by so many people yet nobody really knows me at all the person who promised to stay forever slowly became a stranger and one day just left saying things changed maybe they did but i still reread old chats like an idiot hoping the memories hurt less someday my mental health is literally cooked now i overthink every small thing i barely sleep and sometimes i disappear from everyone for hours because talking feels exhausting the saddest part is nobody notices when the happy person starts breaking from inside people only care when you completely fall apart and honestly i think i am very close to that point i miss home i miss being.